Six years ago, I read a book by Thorn Keif Hillsbery called What We Do is Secret. It’s shocking and sad and the way it’s written takes a few pages to get into, but it completely blew me away (so much so that I read it again immediately I finished it).
It remains one of my favourite books.
When I saw that it was a finalist in the Lambda Literary Awards, I don’t quite know why, but that became my sort of secret goal (at that point I had not finished a single story). But I thought if I could one day write a book and it could be a finalist in the Lambda’s like one of the best books I’ve ever read, then that was all I wanted.
Awards aren’t everything. They don’t mean your book is any better than the thousands of others out there (and you have to put yourself in for these things and plenty of great authors don’t), and they certainly don’t guarantee you any more sales. But this was my goal, because of a book I love, and I can’t quite believe I achieved it. It feels huge 🙂
(Means I can stop writing now XD)